12 AM- Finally pass out after two hours of tossing and turning because sleeping on one side makes the baby kick and wiggle, the other makes him push on your cervix (OW.), and your back and hips are killing you either way. Plus, bathroom breaks and random contractions.
5 AM- Unable to go to sleep after waking up for probably the fourth time during the night to go to the bathroom because the sun is starting to come up, and the combination of light and having your eyes (barely) open makes for the perfect opportunity to start worrying about everything.
7 AM- After numerous trips to the bathroom and tossing and turning (punching from the inside, pushing on cervix, the occasional Braxton-Hicks), fall asleep again.
8 AM- Wake up to hear your sweet child asking for "Mommy? Mommy? Mommy?" from the next room.
8-10 AM- Change the little girl, feed her, clean up, manage to get in some breakfast yourself, fold some laundry, take care of the dog, try to entertain and distract and clean up after an 18-month-old and a puppy.
10 AM- Put baby down for a nap (yes!) and try to get a nap in yourself.
11 AM- Get up feeling helpless, enraged and frustrated because, yet again, your baby won't let you sleep.
Take a relaxing shower, dissolve into tears because
Share a little of the raincloud with your sweet husband who is working from home by telling him everything that's bothering you and all your hopes and fears and aches and pains. These are definitely real, overwhelming problems and probably not just pregnancy hormones gone awry. Husband (who has dealt with a pregnant wife once and knows how to handle these sorts of things) sympathizes gently with you, which is greatly appreciated. As a solution, he suggests you down half a beer to settle yourself and the baby down to sleep, which suggestion is not greatly appreciated.
11:45 AM- Toddler wakes up again.
Around 12:30 PM- An angel or sister-in-law, it's difficult to tell which, calls out of the blue to ask if she might take Diana sometime during the day to play and make cookies with her, while giving you the chance to nap. Almost begin weeping again at divine providence.
1 PM- Make and feed everybody lunch.
2 PM- Drop happy toddler off with many happy relatives and go home.
2:30 PM- Attempt to go to sleep. You know you'll have no problem because you're incredibly tired.
3 PM- After bathroom breaks, punches, and particularly vicious attacks on your cervix by a surprisingly energetic inside baby, give up the idea of sleeping with much more teeth-gnashing and tears of frustration. Feel like punching the kid back just because you're so tired.
Husband again talks you off a cliff of rage and desperation (helpful). Again suggests using beer to calm the child down (not helpful).
Decide to use your time sans baby to get things done around the house. Pick up toys (including the dog's toys), vacuum the entire house (a feat because everything's harder when you're pregnant) and start making potato rolls.
~5 PM- Amazing sister-in-law drops off your very happy child AND cookies.
5:30 PM- Sweet husband comes home from the gym with flowers, encouraging words, and fresh French bread.
6-8 PM- Husband plays with his little girl and the dog and finishes putting together the organizing system in the kids' closet (which you've been hinting you'd like finished). Everyone eats a happy dinner, the rolls are finished, the little girl gets a bath and goes to bed with minimal fussing.
8:30 PM- Sit down, relax, feel humbled by all the blessings and wonderful people in your life. Resolve to try to have a better attitude even when life is physically difficult. Realize that it's not your baby's fault that life is so uncomfortable and allow yourself to think about how wonderful it will be when he's born, how much you want to see him, and how much you love him already. Wonder if it's too late to try some ice cream....
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